If we could just stop hating ourselves so much
Ward Alper, THE Decadent Diabetic
I very often look in at the American Diabetes Association community boards and see comments from other diabetics about their numbers. What I see far too much of are people saying “my original A1C was 19.9 and It is now 5.6, I eat 1 gram of carbohydrates a week and exercise 12 hours a day but my BS readings last week were such and such and other people’s A1C numbers are less, I know mine isn’t too bad BUT why are my numbers not as good as John A’s or Mary B’s numbers? I know that I was traveling or at a party, or at work extra hours and not eating as well as I should”.
It reminds me of the line from Mart Crowley’s ground breaking play THE BOYS IN THE BAND. Toward the end of the play, one of the characters muses “If we could just stop hating ourselves so much” Perhaps too many of us, especially those with Type 2 Diabetes feel that we are to blame for being diabetic. We ate too much of this, or too little of that, did not exercise enough, we were what? BAD? Time to get over it! Now would be good! If you think that you are a Diabetic because you ate too many candy bars for too many years, remember that your pal Paul ate them right alongside you and Paul is not a Diabetic.
Here are these diabetics that have done so well, come so far, and are beating themselves over the heads with an emotional bat. Rather than reaching over and patting themselves on the back, rather than celebrating what they have achieved, we don’t seem to be able allow ourselves to congratulate ourselves on our achievements. I have to wonder why so many of us cannot celebrate rather than berate ourselves. We need to see the possibilities and the positive challenges around us. I have made my life with diabetes fun again. Every one of us can do the same. I am lucky, I have a doctor that tells me how proud he is of me. Every body reacts differently. So go ahead blame your body, but don’t forget to love yourself.
It is hard for all of us and for each of us in a different way to live a healthier life with diabetes. It takes a huge amount of work sometimes to control our disease. I’m, a thinkin’ it is time this holiday season and for the next ten years for us to sit back, be proud of what we have done for ourselves and our families, be clear about what we will do, and stop, breathe, and CELEBRATE our best accomplishments and do a little laughing, just for the good health of it!.
Enjoy, be Healthy, be DECADENT!